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The Drama Never Ends
Well, I got my first rejection letter yesterday from Northwestern. It sucks. It wasn't one of the schools I really wanted to go to so I don't mind, but rejection in general sucks.
There's so much prom drama going around that I really hate it. I told my friend she could just get the purple dress since she did pick it out first - but now she's not going to prom! And I'm thinking WTF?! She's just like "I want to avoid the drama" and "nothing we planned is working out" and I'm soooo angry and depressed right now because she's my "closest" friend in my grade. It's too tough to try to squeeze in with the other girls on my table and stuff and it's awkward.
The guy I wanted to ask to prom (junior) was already asked by another senior - so that combined with the rejection letter totally drained me today. And then my friend has to tell me that she's basically abandoning me by not going to prom! And another friend secretly asked her if she could join them on their table since they're one couple short, and she's always doing that! She's always being sneaky and trying to slyly get people to join her table or this and that and it's so annoying!
Part of me doesn't want to go anymore - I'm so sick and tired of the people in my grade!!! I hate it! But I know that I'm going to hate it later if I don't go. Just that fact that I didn't go to my "senior" prom is going to suck later. I know I'm going to regret but I don't want to go with the stupid people in my grade!!! Ugh, I wish graduation would come and go so I can leave and never see their stupid faces again.
UGH!
PS. I was looking through my past blogs and stumbled across my resolutions. I haven't been doing a good job of keeping them. Well, most of them have been pretty impossible.
2008 Resolutions 1. Live life. No matter what. 2. Attend church as regularly as possible.unfortunately, not happening 3. Meet someone new. 4. Finish the things I've started. 5. Reunite with Elementary / Middle School people. 6. Visit my old teachers. 7. Live drama-free (or at least reduce it).not happening. 8. Know who I am. 9. Look and walk forward. 10. Love.
Musical ended really well. I'm sad it ended, but at the same time, I'm glad it's over. It wasn't the same as Fiddler, and I didn't feel as if the cast bonding was as cohesive. I guess because there wasn't a single number where everyone was on stage at once. The musical is a little unconventional in that it doesn't really have an opening and closing ensemble number like most other musicals.
Anyway, after musical came the prom drama. Seriously, it's getting old and it's so very annoying. I have a friend who refuses to go because she doesn't have a date, and refuses to go with guys who aren't "cute" or "people she doesn't know." But she agreed to go with my other friend's date's friend who happened to be "cute" even though she has no idea who he is! How hypocritical is that? And now she just adamantly refuses so we gave up.
But that left three couples to find a limo/hotel thing that we were going to do, and so we decided to cancel the hotel thing since the rest of our group always does their own thing without us. It's so annoying. They never ask us or include us in anything, then afterwards are always like "Where were you?" or whatever. And now I'm annoyed at my one friend because we both want the same prom dress. But whatevs, even though it looks waaaaayyy better on me, she can have the stupid thing. I don't care anymore.
I want this year to be over. I want to graduate and leave for college. I want to never look back and say goodbye to those suckers.
But first I have to get in somewhere on the east coast so I don't have to worry about running into them.
I've gotten into USC, Santa Clara, and the University of Miami. I got waitlisted at University of Chicago (which is okay since I don't really want to go to that school anymore). And I'm waiting on 7 more schools. Wish me luck!
